Something about now makes me feel like i'm back in highschool all over again. I remember dying for the day when it was gonna be over. I remember that I was dying for college where people would be more mature, where matters would be more serious, where i could feel like i'm in the middle of grown ups. The stupid me didn't figure out that everyone i'm with was gonna probably come with me.
Something had given me the belief or hope that people would be more real, and to a certain extent they were. But now i'm starting to doubt it. I do admit that they are still much better than the way things used to be back in school but still, things are sort of taking the same pattern ... once a cooler surrounding, even if temporary, is available, the real things that are not as cool are just ditched...

So i'm back with the same highschool rants, i'm sick of always being the one who calls, i'm sick of not being sought except when needed for favors or services... i'm sick of showing care for people and being taken for granted....

shit i'll stop writing this right now ... maybe i DO need to fucking grow up